One day at work a couple of years back, an alert popped up on my mobile device: my salary had been deposited. It was a decent sum for a someone still at university, so I did my what I always did payday ritual: I launched every single retail application on my device. From Amazon to Zara, the list was endless. In under 60 minutes, I had parted with £90 on apparel, home decor and a totally useless weighted blanket that never touched.
A few days later, I went online again and purchased a hairdryer. I already owned one, but reasoned an extra one wouldn't be a problem. Then I added LED strip lights and two shoes that didn't even fit me. This wasn't a new pattern. In fact, I’d been infamous for it since I started earning.
Whenever I felt stressed, tired or bored, I would mindlessly scroll until it always culminated in an impulsive shopping spree. My justification was always: “Oh well, it’s just £5.” But £5 turned into £10, then £20, and continued.
I was never entirely sure why I did this. Perhaps it was due to I grew up in a poor family, where we’d experience months without buying new outfits or anything to decorate the home. So any moment I had extra money, there was always a subconscious yearning for novel and thrilling things. Or possibly, and definitely more likely, I was just bad with money and gave in easily to capitalism’s demands.
In the end, I decided to experiment with a novel idea. Prior to buying any item, I’d put it in my digital cart, delay for 24 hours, then make a choice whether to check out. The greatest advantage of this method was that it provided me time to reflect – something I’d never taken. For the first occasion since I turned 18, I began asking myself: “Do I actually require this? Is it within my budget?” More often than not, the answer was negative.
If I opened my shopping apps and discovered items lingering in my cart, I’d clear them out and start fresh. By employing this system, I ceased acquiring goods that I knew deep down I would never utilize. I once wanted to purchasing a trio of games, but after waiting before visiting the shop, I realised I never actually play tabletop games.
I also wanted to buying a disposable film camera for my first holiday to the coast. After waiting I recalled I possessed a smartphone, similar to most people, that features a perfectly good lens, and thus did not need to buy a dedicated device.
It additionally means I am more selective about the things I do buy, and I can finally look at my financial records devoid of experiencing guilt or discomfort.
Of course, there have been occasions I’ve relapsed into old habits – it's human nature. The difference now is that I can recognise the signs sooner, especially when I’m rushing into a purchase. I’ve come to understand ennui is a powerful trigger. It’s perhaps the primary driver of my reckless spending.
Modern culture preys on this idleness and our need for instant gratification. That’s why, looking back, forcing myself to halt before purchasing has felt unexpectedly freeing. Gaining command over my impulses and reaffirming that I don't have to spend my hard-earned money on non-essential products feels as revolutionary as it is simple.
An avid explorer and travel writer with over a decade of experience in documenting remote destinations and outdoor adventures.